Waves crash over you, throwing body and mind

In chaotic directions of darkness and pain.

You were made for the land and so you hold your breath

As you claw your feet into the ground.

The currents pull you out deeper and deeper

Each gasp is met by another wave of details and emotions.

What do we do now?

“Gasp”

When should we have the funeral?

“Gasp”

Should I go back to work this week?

“Gasp”

How can I raise the kids on my own?

“Gasp”

Death and grief plunge you again into a foreign terrain

Where every breath is struggle.

You weren’t meant for this

Separation

Grief

Death.

You will never see them again

Except in the recesses of your mind where

Memories will be replaying

Scenes that become distorted by time and erosion.

The sleepless nights

“Gasp”

The disingenuous platitudes

“Gasp”

The religious cliches

“Gasp”

The loneliness

“Gasp”

Wave after wave.

You will not accept this.

You will never reach “acceptance”

Of the new normal that threatens the foundations of being

Foundations broken by the waves that rippled

When he/she fell into the depths of the oceans

Leaving you in the wake of the waves.

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